Life Starts HERE!...?

What is supposed to be my final exam in my undergrad Physics career, looked me in my face today and laughed at me. There were many things i did not understand in that course and hence on that paper but i got over it and walked out of the exam room feeling much, much lighter. My time in that institution (still here, in my dorm room) taught me many things, including how to make and keep very good, real friends, how to bullshit through exams, labs and classes and most importantly, the kind of person i am/ have become. One thing I discovered however was that this degree will not define me, it is what i choose to do, post graduation, that will determine my future. I will make it so. Anyway, i feel like life starts here.


I do not know what to expect from now on-wards and i'm scared as heck but i'll accept that challenge. However, I do know now that what i have done up until now is not what i truly want to do ( i hate it!) . I understand that most people in the world hate what they have to do on a day to day basis....but i feel like i have the opportunity to explore the better options and try my best to take my life some place where i can be happy or at least satisfied. I have never lived by society's definition of happiness...and i don't intend to either...i'll find my way...somehow. I don't know how or where the heck to start but i can look for hints,.and really find out what it is makes/ will make me happy.

I spoke with a friend the other day and he raised a very interesting point. He said "it's stupid to ask a 19 year old to choose what he/she wants to do for the rest of his/her life when a few months back they had to ask permission to go to the bathroom". In any case, maybe i'll be around here more. I get really edgy and depressed when i can't flex all my brain cells, which is what happened while doing physics...all that mathematics and physics-y stuff get's annoying after a while and a bit dull/boring when one looses their passion for it <.<  *lost passion* so yeah, here's me....sratching my head...wondering what to do next...i have an idea, i'll run with it!

good to rant no?